Well, That Didn't Take Long

Today is Tuesday, 1 week and 2 days back into work and I hate it again. That happened a lot sooner than I thought. I figured I could make it until March or something before this set in. I've thought a lot about it and I feel one of the main reasons I feel the way I do is more ethical than anything. To sum it up shortly, I was asked point blank, to lie (not tell the whole truth) and now it's a rush covering up lies while finding a solution. I just don't want any part of it, and to be frank, I don't care. I don't have any motivation to find a solution because as far as I'm concerned this is messed up because of lies.

So, if you had a migraine headache, how would you like to spend 4 hours this afternoon:
1) Chewing glass
2) Splashing your eyes with battery acid
3) Sitting in a pile of fireants
4) Listening to some German with an agenda read a 36 page technical document full of stuff that DOESN'T MATTER

Which one did you choose? Well I had to endure scenario #4 this afternoon. I'm trying to be as patient as possible, to find my purpose here. It's not this job, I'm pretty sure of that much. Something has to change.

Also, I do have a hernia. I have an inguinal hernia, and it will require surgery to be corrected. The surgery is up to me, as far as when I would like to have it done, and I'm leaning more toward sooner than later.

X-Rated Picture, Beware

We're all adults here, so don't get upset at the picture. That's the best description of my condition. Originally all the reading and research I had done told me I didn't have a hernia, because none of the symptoms matched. I then found out about the inguinal hernia, and suprise, that's matches my symptoms and the picture pretty much confirms it. I will know more tomorrow after I have a doctor examine me, but I'm pretty sure this is what my problem is. The bulge shown in the picture isn't always evident, but after physical activity, such as shoveling snow or bowling, for example, the protrusion becomes very evident followed by a pain that's not severe, just irritating.

There was a ton of snow that fell yesterday so now we have about a foot or so on the ground. That makes driving really fun, because the roads still aren't all the way clear.

Tomorrow after my doctor's visit I can update on my condition more thoroughly.

Little Tricks For You

2 Things:

1) When you turn 25 years old, like I just did, and if you own a 2008 Honda Civic LX 4 door, your insurance premium will drop $136 every 6 months. Poof, just like that, here's $136 for turning 25.

2) I have a hernia, or a tumor, I'm convinced.

Happy Easter; Love Your Friend, Michigan

Instead of lillies, buds, and spring air we got this Friday for the Easter weekend. We had a nice week previously of actually seeing the ground, and the ground was starting to thaw out finally (i.e. it didn't feel like you were walking on a rock while walking on the grass). Then we got this. Luckily Saturday it started to melt but it was strange to see snow on the ground at Easter.

I didn't have to work Friday. A 3 day weekend should happen every weekend, if life were fair. I celebrated by sleeping later than usual, reading, teaching someone from work how to play Smash Brothers, reading more, then going over to Alex's to play more Smash Brothers, then I played 2 more hours with Paul online through Skype using a webcam.

Saturday I took Walt to the dog park. We had missed 2 weeks for whatever reason, but he was happy to go back and play with his dog friends. I also went rock climbing Saturday. I REALLY miss being able to do it for free at Clemson. Now I have to drop $25 every time I go. Friends from work go once or twice a week because they have year memberships (that's like $900). I try to go twice a month. I justify it because it's SUCH good exercise and a mental challenge as well.

I joined a program at work called "In Shape". The whole point is to be on a team, and encourage people to loose weight. Our engineering group formed a small team and I decided I would do it. Basically it's a 6 month long comittment in which you set a weight loss goal, and try to achieve it by the end of 6 months. As a team you're supposed to support each other. It's pretty strict, you have to keep a log of food you eat, and basically monitor calories in vs. calories out. I set my goal for 10 pounds in 6 months which I know I can do. I don't want to loose a tremendous amount of weight, but just firm up some. I lost 10 pounds in college, then another 5 pounds when I moved to Michigan. I attribute it to eating smaller portions, but still being healthy. I ate WAY to much when I lived at home. The portions were larger than I needed and there was always a snack of some sort on hand. So this program officially starts tomorrow.

Dan and I went to Easter service at church today. After that we went to Ruby Tuesday for lunch. I had Easter dinner with another friend from work, Paul, and his family.

I found this picture below online. This is the exact car I want to get in May. It's the same model and the same color I want. That's only about 2 months away now so it's getting closer.

Dr. Muhammad

I had to go back to the doctor today for my post physical review, and get written permission to use the gym at work. My appointment was at 4:15, so I had to leave work early. I get there, pay my co-pay from last time, and this time, and sit down. Then I go back, do the weight, blood pressure, and wait for the doctor.

He finally comes in, shuts the door, and gives me this downward look and says "What happened...you had an appointment at 4:15, didn't you"? I said "yes..." and he said "Do you know what time it is now"? I said "No" and he said "well you checked in at 4:34, that's late, I had to see someone else first". Then he asked "well what happened"? I was thinking "this is a joke right, a doctor complaining about someone being late? Isn't that the pot calling the kettle black? I just said "well, sorry". Then after he checked breathing, he went over to the computer and pulled up my profile. He pointed to the screen and said "see, it says you were supposed to be here at 4:15". Like I was contradicting him. And I had to pay money to hear him say everything was fine like I knew he would? That's a rip off, I'm not going back unless I'm sick. The yearly physical stuff is not for me.

Ballooning

I'm getting fat. I thought initially I might just be bloated in the morning, and feel fat. Because during the day I don't feel so fat. Well my pants are getting harder and harder to put on. This morning was really bad. I just took them off and said outloud "David you have to do something about that". I think I'm eating way too much Cinnamon Toast Crunch (Target brand for $1.87) because it's cheap, and it's good, and for some reason I eat a lot of it. I eat other things too that aren't so bad, like apples and drink a lot of orange juice. Another culprit is the weather. It's too cold to do stuff outside, so I'm going to use the gym at work. The main culprit though is me, being lazy. For example I played Nintendo for 2.5 hours tonight. That's a long time. I need to be more disciplined with my health.

The Subaru visit went well. Yesterday was the technical center tour and today was a plant tour in Lapeer, about 1.5 hrs north of here. They seemed impressed and all went well, so I was happy.

I have my performance review at work on the 18th, and that will be where my boss and I review my goals and find out if I met them, or didn't, and just go through my overall performance. Then, in early January, we have a merit increase (raise) meeting. That would ne nice.

That's about it I guess. This weather now is stupid, because it's hovering around 34 degrees and raining. So there's no snow, just cold wet rain. I like it much better when it's colder and we get snow. Snow is better than rain.

Michigan Sunset

I saw this when I walked out of my apartment the other night. The picture turned out darker than it actually was, but it was a very pretty orange/pink color (well, from what I can tell, it might have been green for all I know since I can't really see colors that well).

I was asking Kiki when she was here about a car color. Honda has a color they call "Galaxy Grey" and to me, it looks beige, like a dark sand/light brown color. Kiki told me no, it was grey. But I don't like grey. So what if I bought that color car, knowing it was grey, but it LOOKED beige/brown to me, would that be alright? When someone asks me "what color car do you drive" I would say beige/brown because that's what it looks like to me. Confusing!!!

I think I will go with the blue since I can see that one ok.

Waaaaaaaaaaaarm!

I just looked and I haven't posted since Thursday. Unacceptable.

Friday was aggravating to say the least. I don't want to say much about it here, if you really want to know why work was stupid and I felt like leaving and pretending Friday didn't happen, just give me a call and I'll be glad to tell you.

Now that Friday is over, I was able to enjoy the weekend. I have my FE Exam next Saturday, so I tried, tried studying for the exam for as much as I could. In school, especially senior year, it was very hard to get motivated and I got very distracted. Now, it's nearly impossible to concentrate. I always have some excuse NOT to sit down, and concentrate. And that scares me. I used to be SO good at just sitting down and studying, and working. Now, not so good. And I don't know if it's because I'm REALLY getting ADD or if it's just lazy...or what. Anyway it's scary because it's not like me. I just don't have much motivation. I guess having a job and a paycheck will do that to you.

Saturday I went and did a blood test for my physical. It was painless and only took 5 minutes or so. I made a salad for dinner tonight, and since I started to like peppers I bought one at the grocery store to cut up and put in my salad. I don't know what kind it was, but it looked good, and it was green, and was long, so I bought it. I chopped it up and put it in there and took a bite and felt the rath of fire in my mouth. I ran to the trash, spit it out and started coughing. I poured a huge glass of milk and started chugging it down. I even started crying and my face was hot. It was the hottest thing I have ever put in my mouth. I'll just stick with the peppers in the Papa John's box from now on, I can't handle much more. I had to throw the salad away I made because it was contaminated with the acidic fire.

I hope this next week at work goes well, and I hope I get more motivation to study for my exam. Please send me an email, and tell me in a commanding tone to study so I remember.

99.9% Sure

I'm 99.9% sure this is going to happen, unless something unexpected pops up, but my news is...

That I'll be going to Japan for work! It will be the first week of November, but I'm not sure of the dates yet. I'll be going with others for work, and they've already told me this will be a "learning" trip for me, so it won't be as stressful as it would be if it were up to me to present, and know everything.

We had a meeting about it today, and it looks like it's a go.

ALSO!

I had a physical today and I had my first breast exam today. Yes, it was just as akward to have it done as it was for you to read that. I know men can get breast cancer, yes, but having another man feel your chest while talking to you is just weird. Not to mention all the other "examinations" I had to have, but I'm not going to mention those because they are just as akward, I mean more akward, than the breast exam. I am healthy though and had a good report, that's all that matters.