Sad Day

I couldn't sleep well last night. I couldn't fall asleep first of all, then it was the sleep where your mind isn't asleep, but somewhere else. And then, when you wake up, BOOM the thought that you couldn't espcape is right there when you wake up. That thought for me was Fuji, our Shar Pei. He had been missing since Sunday and was nowhere to be found. Today while at work (I'll get to that later) I started to think about him again...where he could be, if someone stole him, if he was hurt etc. So I called me my mom at my desk and she broke the news, he had died. He was in our garage the whole time and was apparantly hit by a car, came back to the house and died in our garage. Not the primary garage, but the 2nd garage we don't use much. Cosmo was trying to tell my mom for a few days by walking towards the garage, and crying. She went in today and found him.

I'm really sad because I loved him a lot. And, animals are always so hard to loose, other than close family members or friends. They're just so special, dogs especially. I will miss him a lot, and I'm sad I didn't get to see him one last time.

Work was actually annoying (a little) today, partly because I had that on my mind, and partly because of people's attitudes and bureaucracy that was rampant. I was given something to do, which is good, I'm glad, but it was more busy work for me because I had to SIT for about 5 hours total and WATCH the drafter draw what I was telling him because I don't know the CAD language he was using. So that was hard, and the fact that he was Romanian didn't help either. I finally got a laser pointer and sat back, and pointed at the screen so he could see what I was talking about. I know that sounds snooty, but leaning up, and back, and up, and back, and up again because he didn't understand gets real old after about an hour.

Then I had a meeting with an engineer and our accounts manager. That was just annoying because it was drama that wasn't necessary...a lot of hard language and demands. Not what I want to hear. So I didn't leave until around 6:00. I missed the bank, so I still haven't deposited my paycheck. I then went grocery shopping and had the pleasure of waiting in a line at Meijer's. You can go on Saturday, Sunday, Monday, Tuesday...5:00 pm, 11:00 pm...it won't matter. You'll wait a good 15 minutes in line to pay them for their overpriced food. Lastly people today at work were being pretty lazy, just sitting around and complaining about how morale is low, and how they're tired...again, not what I want to hear today.

The engineer I work with is a nice guy, he's my "buddy" assigned to me to get me accustomed. Now, I don't want to judge to hastily or jump the gun, but he isn't really showing me what he should, in my opinion. For example, we have lots of forms and formal items to present on each project, and reviews to complete etc. Well I questioned if he'd like me to go ahead and check on getting a form taken care of since it was over due for the project. He just said "ehhh, nah, I mean, I don't do those because it doesn't help me get the product designed, so I don't do it". Well, that's nice for you, but I'm organized and want stuff done when it's supposed to be done, and I don't like having a million things in my "head" instead of on paper, filed away. The accounts manager I mentioned earlier actually is a lot like me I'd say, but a little more dramatic and demanding, so he wants to be organized which is good. I think that's why he was so demanding today, is because he's been in the dark too long.

Atleast I have things to do tomorrow to stay busy. I'll miss you Fuji.